Oh. My. Goodness.
For those of you who haven't heard yet,
I learned last week that I was chosen to be one of 8 contestants
to take part in the second season of Refashion Runway,
hosted by Beth, The Renegade Seamstress.
It was pretty exciting stuff.
And tomorrow is the big reveal for the first challenge!
Yes, yes, I'm a little nervous.
But in all honesty, I love my completed project,
so no matter what happens, I feel very good about what I did!
As this first week has played out, I have gone through a range of emotions,
and have arrived at the following conclusion...
I am going to be me...and make what I would wear!
This is a competition, so naturally you want to put your best foot forward.
But I have decided that it is definitely going to be my foot, and not some fake,
give-the-people-what-they-want kind of foot.
I have a unique style and taste, which may not gel with everyone.
But I will feel best about my projects if I love them,
and I'll love them best if they are a true representation of myself.
I knew when I started this competition, that the sewing would be the easiest part.
Challenging, oh yes, but I feel comfortable with a sewing machine.
You know what does scare me?
Presentation!
I am not in love with my hair, and haven't been for quite a while.
Now I have to do something with it before the rest of the world sees me!
Scary stuff.
Oh yeah, and while we are on that subject,
I feel the same way about makeup.
I like the stuff, but I barely wear it.
I like going au naturel most of the time, and even when I do use makeup,
it is pretty minimal, simply because I feel best
without worrying if my face plaster is coming off!
But that's not all.
You want to know the aspect that really scares me?
It's not necessarily whether or not people will like what I make,
or whether I can keep up the creative flow of juices for the duration of the contest,
although those are certainly viable points.
No.
What really makes me nervous is...
Judging my fellow competitors.
Half of each project's scores comes from our fellow seamstresses.
And I think...
How do you put a number on someone else's efforts?
How do you grade another person's creative work?
Can you really distill all of their investments into a series of scores?
In my opinion, no.
You can't.
Speaking for myself,
just getting to this point is a great accomplishment,
and I'll be thrilled to death no matter how far I get!
I'll still stalk my computer each week to see what everyone has made
and be just as excited about the outcome as I was last season.
But everyone wants to make it all the way.
I think I can safely say the grading process will probably
take the most prayer and relative time out of everything.
And another thing....
(that is if you are still reading)
Please don't vote for me just because you know me!
I want honest results, and I don't like prejudiced votes.
My brothers' have competed in filming contests where the results
were determined by popular vote...and the winner was most often the one with
the most friends, not the best video.
It was pretty obvious to everyone, and it always stunk.
So if you read my blog, if you know me,
please, go and vote for your favorite project, whether it is mine or not.
I think prejudice and favoritism has cheated many a talented person
out of their just reward.
My soap box is creaking,
I think I had better get down now.
So yeah...
I think that sums it all up!
I'm looking forward to the next couple of weeks,
and I hope you are too!
Very thoughtful essay; it is a delight to see such kindness!
ReplyDelete- Jo H.
Thank you! After sharing something so personal, it is nice to get some encouraging feedback about it. :)
DeleteOMG, I'm so happy I read this post. I feel lucky that I was one of the 8 too, but I feel the same about the same issues you just pointed. Presentation, not so much about me, but when it comes to my daughter, I don't like to expose her online, so I usually blurry her face. =( I also feel terrible about scoring everyone else's refashions. I always think I might be unfair. I wish we didn't have to do that.
ReplyDeleteHi, Magda! I'm so glad this resonates with you too, that is a comfort to know! :) I am glad I'm not the only one that is nervous about scoring everyone else! I think it is so great that you are in this challenge- I love how there are women from all over the world!
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